A seemingly harmless factory operates in our home every evening. This is when my four year old daughter Dami and I set out to do homework. In the hours that follow the home work machinery is set into motion. While on certain exceptional days we manage to deliver good output much ahead of schedule by completing worksheets in a jiffy, this is not the general rule. On most days, our production is slow and this is when mixed and contradicting emotions surge in me. On the one hand I feel extremely sorry to see those tiny fingers struggle to take a firm grip of the pencil and those tired pleading eyes. Yet the next instant I flare up in fury when after taking a ton of effort to teach an alphabet, I notice my little girl singing to herself or looking distantly at the toys in the shelf. I often get flustered over the excessive demand placed on our small factory which results in piles of homework and a lack of resources, meaning a weary and disinterested girl with no eagerness to get through with those daunting worksheets.
The sympathy and anger that grips me are the harmful pollutants that our factory ejects and these certainly need treatment before release into the atmosphere, which is the peace and quiet of our home. To handle these deadly emotions before any one takes the upper hand is in no way easy and I can relate from experience that I struggle to do this. Yet I have understood that unless properly and adequately treated, lethal consequences can be expected. So I get to the task of balancing emotions and this is a daily battle for me. Sometimes I shudder to think of the long term work plan of our factory. With each year, our factory will no doubt have to expand and take up additional load. Will Dami and I be up to this task? I still do wonder and in the mean time, I try my best to master my effluent treatment process as this alone seems to hold the key to the success of our rapidly growing homework factory.
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